Silence

In many religions, silence is a precious thing. Quakers use silence in their religious services. Silent meditation is a part of many Eastern religions as well such as Buddhism. Silence forces you to reflect. It forces you to think or let go of thought. When you practice silence, you learn what is important to say and what is important to let go. This blog most certainly isn't about religion. Unless, you want to call the worship of my love a religion. I sometimes do. It is very often a very spiritual experience to love and care for him.

But, my silence from this blog has been intentional at times and unintentional at other times. I sometimes feel that I have lost my voice when it comes to blogging about sex, so I remain silent to make sure that my words carry some weight. Other times, I stay quiet because I am just so damned selfish. I want to keep him to myself.

When you fall in love, you want to shout it from the rooftops. When we started, I could not do this because our relationship was illicit. So, I expressed it through my blog. Now, our relationship is legitimate. Our families and friends know of our love for one another. (In fact, we are getting married before the end of the year!) Now, I want to keep some of our love private. I want to fold it up and carry it in a pocket close to my heart. It is funny how the human mind works.

At his urging and my own desire, I will begin writing more. I don't know what I will want to say just yet, but the words are forming.